Thursday, June 25, 2020

I Don't Know the Solution, But I Don't Want To Be Part of the Problem

Yes, all lives matter, but right now some need more attention than others - God

Edit: I am having a hard time writing this. I keep starting and stopping, changing, rewriting. I finally settled on a title and I think that's why I can't finish this - I don't know what the answer is. Over the next several days - maybe weeks - I'm going to explore the various facets of racial discrimination and possible solutions. For now, here is my unfinished start to this exploration.

My heart hurts today. To the point where I want to go back to bed, pull the covers over my head, and stay there until all of this craziness stops. Avoidance is my go-to, knee-jerk response to grief. I know that

I'm particularly sensitive right now. Too many things have thrown me off kilter. Weariness of dealing with the pandemic and spending too many hours each week creating my church's online worship videos have worn me down. I am grieved at the brutal, unnecessary death of George Floyd. Add to that the passing of one of my precious dogs, Nicky, this past weekend. It has left me in a fragile state. 

So, maybe I shouldn't be surprised that the response of one of my church friends to this has caused me pain. 

I shared a post on Facebook that contained the best analogy to "black lives matter", a comic by Kris Straub that shows how all houses matter, but the one on fire needs extra attention at the moment. Kris published the comic several years ago and I've used it a few times as a way to address the "but ALL lives matter!" response to "black lives matter". Of course, all lives matter. God loves each of us as if there was only one of us. Each of us matters a great deal to Him. But I believe that He spends a little more time with those of us who need some extra attention.

This church friend, who I've known to be intelligent, thoughtful, and caring, responded with an angry face emoji. I don't know why, but I suspect it's related to his response to an earlier Facebook post of mine about a protest that was planned that night. He stated that he believed the George Floyd incident was a case of police brutality, not racism. 

I was totally frustrated over the police brutality comment. 

Sunday, May 17, 2020

Philippians 1:6

Philippians 1:6 And so I am sure that God, who began this good work in you, will carry it on until it is finished on the Day of Christ Jesus.

I'm baaack! At least for a post or two for now. This is the first time in weeks that I've felt that I had any time to devote to Dances in the Light. 8 weeks ago, I added video producer, videographer, and video editor to my daily activities, when my church turned to online worship in the midst of stay-at-home orders.

I am not a professional. I've never had a course on how to make a video. YouTube has become my friend. So, you can imagine that creating a video from start to finish has been a slow process for me. And producing two videos each week (one worship service and one Children's Church) has taken up most of my free time. They are far from professional, but our church members and other folks who are viewing them are LOVING them, so I feel as though I'm pleasing God.

Although I'm looking forward to the end of all of this, I'm not complaining. It's been a humbling, exciting experience for me. It's one of those "be careful what you ask for" things. I never like to ask God to use me because I'm afraid he'll send me to some third-world country and make me eat bugs or something equally distasteful. But lately I've tried to be braver and I've actually been praying the Prayer of Jabez and asking God for more.

I could almost hear God giggle with glee when I first started stepping out. I'm sure He's thinking "Finally!" And the rest is history.

So, bear with me for a while until this craziness passes. I have continued to make graphics for my church, so I'll try to post those when I have time, but no devotions until I have the time to do them right.